Buster the Cocker

To all the family and friends who have been blessed to know this sweet little angel.....🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

It will be my first Christmas in 11 years that he won't be with our family. He saved my life and was there for some of the worst times , but also we shared some of the best times of my life . It's so weird to live with out him around , he went to the Rainbow Bridge so fast .

I'd like to share the story of Buster , so that anyone who has a dog with the same cancer can be prepared or just know what can happen.

I just lost my baby Buster the Cocker , two days ago, 12-6/2014 . He was 13 years old , and he was already on borrowed time .

He was diagnosed April 19 , 2014 of having HEMANGIOSARCOMA , after he had his Spleen removed and a tumor behind his kidney. He quickly recovered from the surgery, we opted to do things holistically and not do chemo, and to enjoy him to the fullest because we're told he may last 1-3 months . We fed him only organic food , chinese herbs Coriolus mushroom, bio algae concentrates , and organic dog foods . We really cherished his time post surgery.

It's so crazy to see him go from being healthy and surviving 7 months post op to , all of the sudden acting lethargic , having no appetite , and having pale dry gums( which I knew were signs of the internal bleeding , based on all of your shared stories )

I didn't want to believe It was happening so we went to bed that night and the next morning he woke up early and I could tell he was uncomfortable , but still not crying . His gums were even more pale and I knew we had
To take him in.
At the hospital I had to talk to them about care credit financing ... It was going to be about $900-$1200 for blood transfusion... And hospitalization

. And had to be charged before any work was done. The care credit allows you to pay off on 6 months with no interest , I had just finished paying off the large amount from his splenectomy in April.

Them we handed him to the nurse , and I kissed his face and told his daddy to do the same and told him we loved him as the nurse took him back to the hospital room... it was such a quick good bye . He went in like a champ.

We left the hospital thinking he would be done with the blood transfusion by 5 pm or so, but they had warned us it maybe a temporary fix . He was anemic and very low red blood cells .

They gave him a blood transfusion and we got a dreadful call that he had a seizure and was not breathing on his own , so they were manually helping him breathe. When we came to see him he was passed out with a breathing tube , and they had stopped giving him blood because he had a spout of diarrhea which they said was a reaction to blood transfusion sometimes. It was awful to see him that way and I just wanted him to wake up. They said the seizure could have caused brain damage so maybe bringing him back would not guarantee his clarity. The doc presented us with option to let him go , or to continue cpr to see if he improved .

I told him I loved him and wanted him to breathe on his own, they let us stay there for a couple of minutes , and then led us out to the waiting room. They needed space to work on him. .

We waited and then about 44 minutes later they told us he was breathing on his own and reacting to touches to his eyelid.

We were hopeful and went in to see him again, and I pet him and touched his eyelids to see the reaction. He was breathing but shivering and his blood pressure was very low. they were blowing warm air in to his blanket .
Still unconscious , I thanked him for choosing me and my family to take care of him, and for coming into my life and being there for me all those years, and that if he needed to go Id be okay because I didn't want him in pain . I kept petting him and wanted to stay but they made us leave after a good 30 minutes .

We waited a long while again reminiscing about good times and praying .

Eventually the doc came in and said his blood pressure kept getting low, so we went in there and I ago an told him I'd be okay with out him and thanks for choosing Jimmy for ( my man ) and for everything , and I told him everything would be okay !

I noticed he wasn't shivering any more but he didn't seem to be breathing in to the tube by himself, I noticed his eyes were more open now looking forward , and he looked more alert and responsive like he was gonna wake up, so I got hopeful and he moved his mouth! And then
He started doing what they call "agony breathes" like he was gasping for air so I thought he was waking up!
But then his heart started beating softer and doctor said " I think he's passing " and immediately , I started crying hard but tried to maintain and accept, and thank him and reassure him that he would be okay and I would see him in my Lucid dreams and in heaven .

His uncle Ariana and scott and his daddy were all balling around me . This whole time .

It was nice they let us go in, maybe Buster fought hard , but the cancer took its course , and he decided to let go after I told him it would be okay.

They let us hold him for a while in our private room where we cried and cried and then laughed about good times , then they took him in to make the clay paw print, and bought him back one last time to be held a little. He's now being cremated and we plan to have a memorial and spread his ashes in places he loved to romp around ! Like the dog beach.

I've been meditating and thinking so much in the last two days and some horrible thoughts but some inspiring and positive thoughts , I wanted to share with you my positive thoughts about this acute and horrible cancer .

A big plus is that Buster Post op, was given another 7 months of healthy living and we really cherished his life EVEN more during these months because we had the scare April 20th when he was diagnosed . And during those 7 months we took him to the beach to fetch balls , swim in Palms Springs in a salt water pool, brought him to parties , to Santa Monica beach , had countless snuggles and fed him organically and holistically .

He was high spirits post diagnoses , and even his last night before the morning we took him to the hospital he munched aggressively on some chicken , and took a nice walk in the back garden area sprightly . We are lucky that he did not suffer for those last 7 months with pain or signs of deterioration!

He acted like a young vibrant bubbly dog, and still won hearts of those who met him. He chased after ducks and still did some of his tricks like bow, 360, high 5, balancing a treat on his nose, and jumping over my leg .
He was mentally alert and still a companion to us being involved with everything and still down to cuddle just before his death. He could still could see sharp enough to catch meat that was thrown at him .

So those of you who have lost your dog suddenly to Hemangiosarcoma, we can be grateful that most likely their deaths happened quickly and we didn't see them in pain drawn out for months or even years !

Celebrate the good times, and I will continue to edit videos and photos of him for his Youtube and instagram! I have tons of footage never uploaded yet !

Love Peipei , Jimmy and Buster.